Sallam alaykum ladies!
The time is 2:16 AM at the moment. I have a long list of tasks to complete but the only thing I want to do is write. It’s safe to say I miss y’all. The past week went well for me, Alhamdulillah. How did yours go?
June is here. I hope you don’t fall in the category of people who think half of the year is gone. I celebrated my birthday in the first week of June and I had a great time! Thank you for the wishes, epistles and prayers. It meant a big deal to me. Enough talk about me, let’s talk self-love.
Why do you deserve love? Take a moment to pause and breathe. Right there is your reason. You deserve love because you are alive. You deserve love because you are human. Even animals deserve love. You deserve love because you are a beautiful creation of Allah. If He can take time out to create you, with all the complex systems that make you function, you are worthy of love.
I have spent over two decades on this planet. I’m laughing out loud as I write this. I don’t feel one bit older although I can’t deny the fact that I am more self-aware. I’ve explored the concepts of self-love for a while. Starting from the time I hated almost everything about myself except my pretty face. There was a time when I couldn’t look people in the face because I was shy. Too shy to voice my opinions and I had lots of them growing up.
Over these years, I have learnt that no one can love you as you can. Only you know what makes you tick. You can teach people how to love you but no one can get the job done perfectly. You know this. The strangest thing about adulting is that we sometimes forget the lessons or let me say we choose to forget the lessons. We look outside of ourselves for love. We look for homes in people, in things. We find it hard to sit with ourselves, with our thoughts. As babies, we were used to people loving us, taking care of us, attending to our needs. So it can be hard to adjust to the reality of adulthood, of loneliness, of being by ourselves.
As you go into the new week, I want you to know for a fact that you deserve love. You are born worthy of love so permit yourself to love yourself. I hope you welcome loneliness with compassion. I hope you become comfortable with your thoughts. I hope you acknowledge the home in you.
With love,
Umaynah